Fate and AAR(ahh!!)

Hello!! i'm so excited bout d AAR concert on october 10.....tyson ritter(high pitch scream)..ahh!!! can't wait....ok...i gotta stop dis sugar rush rant..ahhh!! tyson ritter.....nvm....i've been trying hard not 2 think bout it much cuz if i imagine n fantasise bout all d fun i'll have,fate will poke it's nose into my business n ruin it 4 me....somehow,someway....haiz,life.never fair.........anyway...my insight 4 d day is bout fate.....do u believe in it?? lyk we all r fated 2 meet our soulmate n all.......den y r dere so many divorces?? but people change....i guess n maybe it's part of fate 2 change n go thru d pain n shit of breakups n divorce n learn sumthing frm it......i'm sure all u cynics out dere vil roll ur eyes n getting ready 2 throw rotten tomatoes at me....but u can't cuz i'm behind a computer screen....so,HAH! anyway,fate isn't juz bout love...it's bout life too...lyk ur life is perfect n all n den suddenly ur flat broke n ur juz miserable......is dat fate or is dat a choice?? u always have an option n it may seem scary n impossible...but when u don't take dat option....u let fake take over u n u blame it all on fate but u never blame it on yourself n say"hey,i could have done dat differently".....no,our human-ness tells us its not our fault,not my mistake...it was juz fate...cuz it comforts us.....it makes us feel a little better dat we didn't screw up dat badly....dat we were too scared 2 change......so,fate is our scapegoat..lol.....u may ask,how i noe dis?? cuz dats wat i do too....dats wat most of us do.....so,do u believe in fate or choice??

FAMILY (a hate-love relationship)

Stupid computer i'm using.....doesn't have d new javascript thingy 4 youtube.....i can't watch any videos now.....though dere r other sites,i still prefer youtube..lol....stupid old laptop..haiz...anyway,was suppose 2 go out wif audrey n yi lin 2day...but didn't cuz dey said it was too rush or sumthing lyk dat...didn't fully comprehend wat she meant but nvm,dey still invited me though...i thought if we weren't going 2 watch movie....i lazy 2 go leh.....owh well,dere's oways next time! =) Now,about letting go.....loads of family drama happened...n maybe i don't understand dat much but y can't everyone juz 4give n 4get n juz move on.....i mean,wateva said n dun, ur family n i learnt dat when all ur frens r gone,ur heartbroken....dere vil always b sum1 dere 4 u n dats family......when ur crush breaks ur heart,u can cme back n cuddle ur little sister or complain 2 ur brother hu vil promise 2 beat him up 4 u.......when u had a bad day or sumbody irritates u,u can always count on telling ur mom n get a hug n gossip bout other ppl.....or ur dad hu worries bout his little girl when u fall sick n goes out near midnight 2 buy medicine.....or maybe an older sister hu teaches u bout girly stuff n acts as ur confidante 24/7.......u c,family,no matter how dysfunctional,no matter how shattered, vil always be family.....when dey fall n hurt their leg,u vil feel it too......ur a part of dem n dey r a part of u......dere vil b times when dey say things or do things dat hurt u,dere vil b times when u feel lyk murdering dem,dere vil b times when u wish dey vil juz dissapear 4 gud, but d thing is.....u never noe how much u nid dem until dey r gone n dats when it hurts d most....so,my advice 2 anyone out dere.....if u r feuding wif a family member...call dem,talk it out wif dem.....make d first move...i learnt dat,wat's sacrificing a bit of dignity 4 family,eh?