Of DDNOS and a step

Dissociative Disorder Not Otherwise Specified,not many psychologist know bout dis....it does not carry d same symptoms as d other common 4 or 5(i've done my research).....but,in fact,it carries one sympton out of each common disorder.....it's not lyk d DD Amnesia where u 4get part of ur personal info n all dat.....my disorders a bit weird....alll the disorders have one common factor which is d patients have gone through trauma....but i've nvr gone through trauma but i've almost all d symptoms of DDNOS......so,i reali dunno how 2 classify my disorder....after all,dey say a little dissociating is normal,rite?? but mine's so frequent n unpredictable n definitely unwanted....one day,maybe i'll blur our while crossing d road n den i'll get brain injury n den i'll b even more neurotic den ever! maybe i shud c a psychologist...n regress thru time...or sumthin.....i use 2 think dis wat makes me so unique...but now,if dis uniqueness is gna cost me mylife....2 hell wif it,i rather blend in wif d background 4 d rest of my life....anyway....NEW TOPIC! we all want different things in life....sum want romance,sum want money(ka-ching),sum want fame,sum want nothing.....wat do u want? when we were little,all we wanted were milk,sleep,milk n more milk.....so simple,wasn't it?? but as we get older,our wants get more complicated n begin 2 pile up along wif d problems dat cum hand in hand wif it....we want fashionable clothes,but back den all we wore was a nappy n d problem is money....u c,more complicated.....but dats life....we get so caught up wif all d complexities of our desires....we forget 2 take a step back n relish d simplicity of dat one step......instead we trudge reluctantly forward......dey say 2 u 2 never look back but u have a choice when u look back,u can choose 2 look left or right when u look back.....so,sometimes,as fellow inhabitants of dis world,we need 2 take a step back 2 look forward

Are we really real??

Hello!! sometimes i wonder whether we reali exist in this reality.......who noes,we all might juz exist in some person's mind n dat person might oso b a figment of another person's imagination.....n it's juz a long vicious line dat never ends kind of like "pi".....it never ends.......somebody might be imagining me writing this post about him imagining me......haha,funny.....gives u somethin 2 think about,doesn't it?? there's no proof dat d universe is juz thought out by someone wif an overactive imagination.....even GOD....be it christian,buddhist or hindu......sumbody may juz be thinking out all of these.......i hope i don't get religious devouts coming 2 find me wif torches in their hands threateninh 2 burn me at the stake...but i'm merely speculating,dats all........anyway,i feel a bit crazy dy,so on 2 d next topic......went 2 curve,read a quarter of a book called "slam" by nick hornby......pretty nice but i still prefer "a long way done".......but nick hornby is a gud writer......his characters are eccentric but realistic at the same time......pretty hard 2 do.....haha....well,nothing else 2 say,so......bye??

99.99%

99.99% is a huge amount of people....dats d percentage of people who don't give a shit about what u r doing cuz dey r too busy caring about their own lives........but it's ironic cuz most of us belong 2 dat percentage but at d same time we spend 99.99% of our time caring about wat people think about us..........weird.......but true......i mean,i belong 2 dat category called "human".........no offence 2 d 0.01% out there....i'm sure u r perfectly normal,juz not as normal as the rest of us....even the president of U.S.A cares wat people think of him....i mean,it's pratically a defining aspect 4 his carrer......if people hate u,dey won't vote 4 u.......(George Bush is an exception)........anyway....all i'm saying is don't care so much,sure,there r practical sides 2 it,i mean,u can't go 4 a job interview wearing singlet n shorts....you'll probably inflict permanent psychological damage on dat poor guy who's interviewing you.......see,practical side........but lets look at this situation: you spend an hour deciding wat 2 wear,den u go out n u see a bunch of people giggling and pointing.......u think dat dey r laughing at u n u go OMG! but then it turns out they are laughing at the man who forgot his pants standing beside you. So,dat proves my point,i mean u r too busy wondering wat's their opinion of u dat u don't realise the pants-less guy next 2 u......so,stop wondering......n even if u do,juz pretend dat they think u r totally hot.....cuz dat wat puts us in the category "human"....

'hini"

Everyone's worried about A(H1N1) these days.....or as i call it,hini........much less of a mouthful,if u ask me.....it's lyk,i hear a cough or a sneeze,i shout hini!!.....by the time u shout A-H-1-N-1.....u wud have caught the flu,so u c,it saves lives,i guess.....anyway,i didn't go 2 skul again 2day...cuz of hini...,which can kill,well,not me cuz i'm perfectly healthy,says the little voice inside my head.......they call it the subconcious but i noe it's not.......i mean,d subconcious tells u d right thing 2 do n all dat kind of stuff.......if i hear a voice inside my head.....i can't be dat healthy,can i??? Maybe i have a brain aneurysm,ooh,i spelled it correct(yay).....but nvm......on 2 the next topic which i call "The Wider Orbit"....which is NOT about space cuz the title is quite suggestive but it's not eventhough NASA wud be flattered,i dunno y but i'm straying frm "The Wider Orbit"(scary music playing in the background)....ok,i stole the title n d main storyline frm a story......but it applies 2 me n it's a little different.......so,here goes d topic or wateva.....usually in a group of 3,1 person rotates in a wider orbit but in my case,dere r 4 people buy i rotate in a wider orbit den d rest.......weird,isn't it????or maybe it's cuz i'm a very self-centered person suffering from LOA.....or brain aneurysm....or gasp!! "hini".......i'm back 2 dat again,so u c,"hini" is life-ruining,i prefer ruining den threatening......d word's sooo dramatic.....all i want 2 say is beware of "hini' n always wash ur hands..........y am i suddenly sounding lyk OPWAOWH.........it stands 4"old people who are obsessed with hini"....ooh....i made a new acronym!

confused!

i don't reali noe y i bother updating the blog when nobody reads it......seriously.....so,i can put all my personal and deepest feelings without ppl calling me a bitch.....so,i don't even need 2 make my blog private which makes life much simpler cuz i'm not good with these technology stuff....considering i'm born in the 21st century...which is like a big shocker....okie,gotta stop rambling now.....anyway,i juz read these 2 books by joestein garder(i'm not sure dats how u spell it) but the first book is called "sophie's world"........it's bout philosiphy n the history of it.....n u noe,it was juz spellbinding......quite heavy stuff.....n den i read "The Ringmasters Daughter".....it was quite light compared 2 his previous book but the ending i went "gasp"(mock horror) ya.....quite shocking n controversial not that i'm gonna start a petition 2 boycott the book,mind u,i'm not a prude(i hope).......then i read "angels and demons"....i'm sure u noe by who.....if u don't,i suggest u stop living under a rock....anyway,after so many heavy reads,actually 3 is not a bug number but anyways i wanted 2 try something lighter,,,,lyk "brother odd" by dean koontz........it's a triology(a light triology) but i couldn't find the 1st n 2nd book so i bought the 3rd book but i manage 2 understand cuz it was pretty light....actually,i wouldn't call it light,it was more strange n like the title suggests,odd.......but refreshing n amusing at the same time......not chick lit type of light but a different type.....n jodi picoult is not chick lit,contrary 2 what my mum says......it's....uh......fiction...ya.....anyway,looking 4 odder books 2 read,dunno why.....owh n a sum of my other posts r pretty emo,so....don't take notice,like i said,no one reads it,so,erh....ya,it was all right 4 me 2 post bout my.........uh........murderous tendencies?? so,erh,nothing else 2 say,so whoever u r dats reading this,proboably no one.....see you whenever....