Blah,blah! didn't have any update 4 a long time cuz there's no one 2 update for......not lyk there's a whole line of angry ppl waiting 4 a new post..haha...my post 4 2day has no meaning,i'm juz frigging bored =(.....as i was so damn bored,i played this windows game called "mines...something,something"...4got d name....well,at 1st,damn cacat..didn't noe how 2 play,juz simply click here,click there lyk a retard...finally,i learned...den,after dat..juz 2 irritate myself,i went n keep clicking d wrong buttonn n had 2 restart...sigh,i came 2 d conclusion dat this game is built 4 lifeless ppl lyk me hu keep losing....so,screw the game! went n restyled my hair...den look damn weird on me....haiz...did sum kind of treatment n den layer d bottom.....looked in d mirror n realise i luk lyk an emo punk anime person...WTH!! nvm,i go 2 japan,sure blend in....sigh! until now still sighing...so damn bored at home! have 2 keep looking at my weird hair summore....=(

A long mile to walk in someone's shoes and AAR(ahh!)

AAR concert rocked!! i had so much fun...me,aud,jinny,lydia n rui ci met there n lined up....d lining up wasn't fun.AT ALL. i could barely breathe n i'm sure i got touched a lot n touched a lot as well,okie...dat sounds REALLY wrong..but its true...den we got in n we went 2 d middle but we couldn't see anything wifout craning our necks n jumping at s same time..so,we decided 2 go back..n den aud wanted 2 go in front cuz at d back...we were so far from AAR...but we couldn't squeeze back in anymore already...haiz,i digress...but overall,it was reali fun n tyson ritter was his usual gayish,crazy but still kinda hot self n nick wheeler was juz HOT!!*swoon*..mike kennerty WOULD be hot if he cut his hair n shaved n chris gaylord was..i dunno...OMG,i remember all their names*obssesed*...dat reminds me of d mariah carey song dat sey kept playing when we were waiting for AAR for bout almost an hour.....dey kept playing these few songs: "Obssesed","Party In The U.S.A",You Belong With Me","Mama Do","I Gotta Geeling","Just Dance" n "Paparazzi".....i'm so sick of all these songs now! well,dats all bout AAR....my insight of d day is bout walking in other people's shoes....do u ever place urself in d other person's shoes? i'm learning how 2 do dat....we all do things wifout thinking bout d other party....we all say things wifout caring bout d other person's feelings...we all judge people wifout knowing d real story behind it....n somehow,we all think we r right...our own faults are so big but we can't see it,but we can see the tiniest faults in other people...ironic,isin't it?? so,we should try walking a mile in other people's shoes...maybe we'll see dat is a long,hard mile 2 walk....dey might not have it as easy as we think...n we might juz c things from dat person's point of view...our ego needs a little put down once in a while...plus,it lessens the tension...here's an example: ou dislike this person n u want 2 tell her off...try reversing the roles,i'm sure you wouldn't want someone to tell you off n picking out ur faults...so,stop urself n say"hey,nobody's perfect n maybe she's lyk dat for a reason"...try being concerned n be there for her if she's going thru something....so,next time...juz put yourself in dat person's shoes....n if u can,try walking a mile in it

Finally Fourteen

Hey! in conjunction wif my b'day n my exam finishing,i'm going to post today after a break for,i dunno,a few days? Exams r over! yay! i'm so happy n over d moon! haha...so many things 2 look forward to lyk my besties(yi lin,audrey n jiin-may) c'min over tonight 2 celebrate my birthday wif me n of course AAR concert 2moro (ahh!!!)....can't wait 4 skul 2day 2 end..lol...n thank you so so so much 2 everyone who wished me happy birthday on facebook....sum ppl who wished me..i honestly never expected dem to but still,it's reali nice of dem..so THANK YOU!! Haiz...fourteen,another year older..i asked myself wat did i learn this year dat i didn't noe last year? i honestly dunno...am i more mature? some people would disagree strongly but i do think i'm a bit more rational den last year....at 13 i was impulsive(still can be sometimes now) n selfish(didn't improve much on dat area) but i'm not so lyk dat anymore....i learn in life,dere r tough decisions c have 2 make....n v have 2 look at it from all perspectives,i have 2 think bout d people who r around me..n it's not n easy decision 2 make...n i oso learn dat it hurts a lot 2 be angry at someone...so,i stop n let it go....life is better if u don't take it too seiously...oh well,signing off now! cheers 2 me 4 surviving another year..lol

Randomness!

hey,people! i juz watched "My Sister's Keeper" yesterday wif mum....mum cried lyk a baby whereas i felt lyk cry but no tears at all,makes me wonder if i'm sum kind of emotionless robot or something....it was sad though....but fantastic movie,plus,i LOVE Jodi Picoult books,dey rock! so...if i had 2 give a rating 4 dat movie,it would be 5 stars,of course...but,i'm being bias seeing as i love Jodi Picoult books n family drama/tragedy always tugs my heartstrings....actually,anything dat is an emotionally draining movie,even romance vil earn 5 stars from me,so u c..i'm not an emotionless robot thingy.....owh,dere vil be no insight of d day from me cuz i don't have any..so,maybe next time! We went 2 The Hard Rock Cafe 4 dad's birthday on Saturday,we celebrated a day early....i was kinda excited...n den mum told dem dat it was dad's b'day....so,dey made him stand on d chair n blow out a candle n asked everyone 2 sing happy birthday.....lol...it was fun but i could have died on d spot...it was kinda embarassing,poor dad! all in all...quite a tiring but fun night....den,we toured round K.L....it was more beautiful at night last time,now...i don't feel its magic anymore,maybe cuz i'm older n our country is getting worse....but i had fun....n at tuition,OMG! i can kill xinyin n liuh enn n sum other guy....4got wat his name but dey tease me lyk anything n ruin my perfect day....sigh...i digress...oh well, nothing else 2 say so....randomness!

No regrets

It's time for another insight of the day...before i get 2 dat,i juz took dis quiz on social interview.com...where dey ask 20 "funny" questions bout u n ur frens! it wasn't funny,it was more craappy den anything else,but i took it anyway...cuz i'm a bit crappy myself......but...anyway,on 2 d topic of d day! i'm talking bout things you want to do before you die....ya,morbid,i noe...but i read orbituaries as my hobby,so,not dat suprising my topic 2day is quite morbid...but,actually,it's not....i mean it's suppose 2 give u food 4 thought n those kind of crap...ya...anyway...Have you ever thought bout ur death day?? i mean,sure u have....who hasn't? unless ur some kind of always cheerful n optimistic person who thinks u r immortal,in other words...a few screws loose up there...okie..i'm straying from d topic here...so,will u die with regrets on dat day?? u noe....most people do,when dey r dieing...dey think back bout all d things u wish u had done or said n how big a difference it could have made in ur life,in ur happiness......i have regrets.loads of it....i may sound lyk a hypocrite...but i'm not preaching,i'm merely juz talking bout it....like dey have dis thing in U.S called "Make a wish" foundation...it's for kids who r dieing of terminal illnesses...dis foundation will help dat kid fufill his/her wish...like going to disneyland or riding a pony or whatever.....if u ask me,dey shud have one for everyone n not juz material stuff...u noe,personal stuff too...cuz althoug people do regret the things dey never did,places dey never went but it's d personal stuff dey regret d most....like not patching up wif a family member u fought wif,never saying i love you to the people you want to say it to or maybe the choices u could have made differently if only u had d courage.....those r d type regrets u will carry wif u 2 ur deathbed,believe me...i've been carrying mine for a pretty long time..sigh...so,i'm juz saying...start ur own personal "make a wish" foundation.....tell urself..okie..no regrets,i'm gonna go ahead n do dis no matter what! it doesn't matter if it didn't turn out d way u wanted...at least,at the end of the day....u could tell urself "hey,i took a chance and at least i noe wat will happen instead of wondering what would have been for my whole life".....so,go ahead n live a life wif no regrets....it doesn't matter how old you are when you die....what matters is how well you have lived it

What do you wanna be??

hey! i've pretty much nothing 2 blog bout 2day....but i watched "The Proposal"...it was nice lah....quite funny,i don't get y sum ppl said its not funny at all,maybe my sense of humour is warped or something...lol...ryan reynolds is SO hot!! too bad he's married 2 dat bitch scarlett johanssen....i juz hate her...dunno y,anyway.....on 2 more important things lyk my insight of d day...which is d future...do u noe wat ur gonna do in lyk 10 years time?? people always ask dat question...so,wat do u wanna be in d future?..n dey say it all happy n smiley..which reali pisses me off n den juz 2 piss dem off or weird dem out....i say i want 2 be a person dat pokes into a person's business by asking dem wat do dey wanna be in d future(in an even more happy n smiley way)......i mean,seriously..y bother 2 plan 4 10 years ahead when u can get hit by a bus 2moro n if d bus doesn't come,tough.....ain't my problem....personally,4 me...i can't decide at all.....i have no idea...at all....i prefer 2 go wif d flow.....change wif d circumstances lyk a chameleon! u juz gotta enjoy life....sure,dere comes a time when u have 2 worry bout ur future but don't worry too much....i mean whatever will happen is going 2 happen...it's all in d Lord's plan..teehee......well,don't think too much bout d future......u shud make d most out of life,dat's wat makes it worth living! =)

18 Ground Rules To Avoid Going Insane Before Reaching 18

Hi..i've decided 2 compile 18 ground rules 2 avoid going insane before i reach 18,its applicable 2 anyone..especially me! but u can use it too,if u r as weird n crazy as me....so, here goes n its in random order,so.....number 1 is not d most important rule

1. always act happy,it doesn't matter if u feel lyk shit inside....juz try 2 act as high as u can
2. mentally talk 2 yourself...believe me,its quite entertaining
3. when something bad happens,tell yourself its all in God's plan....even though u noe its not
4. when u get ur heart broken...stuff d guy into a tiny box in your head n don't let him out
5. insult people mentally...u vil feel better bout ur meaness
6. never ask people 4 a favour...manipulate dem 2 do it for you
7. think happy thoughts...n den ask urswlf WTH are you doing dat for?
8. search for emo blogs n scoff at dem so u noe u r not alone in emo blog writing
9. don't try 2 do d right thing...it vil always be wrong in someone else's point of view
10. there's a fine line between positivity n delusional....always cross dat line 2 delusional
11. remember dere's always someone out dere looking out for you n dat person is u yourself
12. don't simply sell ur soul for popularity....make sure u get a good bargain for it
13. smile n say thanks when someone does something for u....n make sure u say it sacarstically
14. when u juz met a guy u lyk,don't introduce him 2 ur fren,she vil probably end up dating him
15. when anybody asks u how u r...say "Fucked-up Insane Neurotic Emotional"
16. when u meet a parasite type of person..pretend 2 be a muderer on d run,dey won't ask u for any favours
17. don't rush into things...dive in headfirst n worry bout d consequences later
18. lastly, if u want 2 vent ur feelings 2 someone,create a blog n vent it dere 4 d whole world 2 c

p.s You can oso use these rules to go insane before u reach 18...so,smiles!

Fate and AAR(ahh!!)

Hello!! i'm so excited bout d AAR concert on october 10.....tyson ritter(high pitch scream)..ahh!!! can't wait....ok...i gotta stop dis sugar rush rant..ahhh!! tyson ritter.....nvm....i've been trying hard not 2 think bout it much cuz if i imagine n fantasise bout all d fun i'll have,fate will poke it's nose into my business n ruin it 4 me....somehow,someway....haiz,life.never fair.........anyway...my insight 4 d day is bout fate.....do u believe in it?? lyk we all r fated 2 meet our soulmate n all.......den y r dere so many divorces?? but people change....i guess n maybe it's part of fate 2 change n go thru d pain n shit of breakups n divorce n learn sumthing frm it......i'm sure all u cynics out dere vil roll ur eyes n getting ready 2 throw rotten tomatoes at me....but u can't cuz i'm behind a computer screen....so,HAH! anyway,fate isn't juz bout love...it's bout life too...lyk ur life is perfect n all n den suddenly ur flat broke n ur juz miserable......is dat fate or is dat a choice?? u always have an option n it may seem scary n impossible...but when u don't take dat option....u let fake take over u n u blame it all on fate but u never blame it on yourself n say"hey,i could have done dat differently".....no,our human-ness tells us its not our fault,not my mistake...it was juz fate...cuz it comforts us.....it makes us feel a little better dat we didn't screw up dat badly....dat we were too scared 2 change......so,fate is our scapegoat..lol.....u may ask,how i noe dis?? cuz dats wat i do too....dats wat most of us do.....so,do u believe in fate or choice??

FAMILY (a hate-love relationship)

Stupid computer i'm using.....doesn't have d new javascript thingy 4 youtube.....i can't watch any videos now.....though dere r other sites,i still prefer youtube..lol....stupid old laptop..haiz...anyway,was suppose 2 go out wif audrey n yi lin 2day...but didn't cuz dey said it was too rush or sumthing lyk dat...didn't fully comprehend wat she meant but nvm,dey still invited me though...i thought if we weren't going 2 watch movie....i lazy 2 go leh.....owh well,dere's oways next time! =) Now,about letting go.....loads of family drama happened...n maybe i don't understand dat much but y can't everyone juz 4give n 4get n juz move on.....i mean,wateva said n dun, ur family n i learnt dat when all ur frens r gone,ur heartbroken....dere vil always b sum1 dere 4 u n dats family......when ur crush breaks ur heart,u can cme back n cuddle ur little sister or complain 2 ur brother hu vil promise 2 beat him up 4 u.......when u had a bad day or sumbody irritates u,u can always count on telling ur mom n get a hug n gossip bout other ppl.....or ur dad hu worries bout his little girl when u fall sick n goes out near midnight 2 buy medicine.....or maybe an older sister hu teaches u bout girly stuff n acts as ur confidante 24/7.......u c,family,no matter how dysfunctional,no matter how shattered, vil always be family.....when dey fall n hurt their leg,u vil feel it too......ur a part of dem n dey r a part of u......dere vil b times when dey say things or do things dat hurt u,dere vil b times when u feel lyk murdering dem,dere vil b times when u wish dey vil juz dissapear 4 gud, but d thing is.....u never noe how much u nid dem until dey r gone n dats when it hurts d most....so,my advice 2 anyone out dere.....if u r feuding wif a family member...call dem,talk it out wif dem.....make d first move...i learnt dat,wat's sacrificing a bit of dignity 4 family,eh?

Of DDNOS and a step

Dissociative Disorder Not Otherwise Specified,not many psychologist know bout dis....it does not carry d same symptoms as d other common 4 or 5(i've done my research).....but,in fact,it carries one sympton out of each common disorder.....it's not lyk d DD Amnesia where u 4get part of ur personal info n all dat.....my disorders a bit weird....alll the disorders have one common factor which is d patients have gone through trauma....but i've nvr gone through trauma but i've almost all d symptoms of DDNOS......so,i reali dunno how 2 classify my disorder....after all,dey say a little dissociating is normal,rite?? but mine's so frequent n unpredictable n definitely unwanted....one day,maybe i'll blur our while crossing d road n den i'll get brain injury n den i'll b even more neurotic den ever! maybe i shud c a psychologist...n regress thru time...or sumthin.....i use 2 think dis wat makes me so unique...but now,if dis uniqueness is gna cost me mylife....2 hell wif it,i rather blend in wif d background 4 d rest of my life....anyway....NEW TOPIC! we all want different things in life....sum want romance,sum want money(ka-ching),sum want fame,sum want nothing.....wat do u want? when we were little,all we wanted were milk,sleep,milk n more milk.....so simple,wasn't it?? but as we get older,our wants get more complicated n begin 2 pile up along wif d problems dat cum hand in hand wif it....we want fashionable clothes,but back den all we wore was a nappy n d problem is money....u c,more complicated.....but dats life....we get so caught up wif all d complexities of our desires....we forget 2 take a step back n relish d simplicity of dat one step......instead we trudge reluctantly forward......dey say 2 u 2 never look back but u have a choice when u look back,u can choose 2 look left or right when u look back.....so,sometimes,as fellow inhabitants of dis world,we need 2 take a step back 2 look forward

Are we really real??

Hello!! sometimes i wonder whether we reali exist in this reality.......who noes,we all might juz exist in some person's mind n dat person might oso b a figment of another person's imagination.....n it's juz a long vicious line dat never ends kind of like "pi".....it never ends.......somebody might be imagining me writing this post about him imagining me......haha,funny.....gives u somethin 2 think about,doesn't it?? there's no proof dat d universe is juz thought out by someone wif an overactive imagination.....even GOD....be it christian,buddhist or hindu......sumbody may juz be thinking out all of these.......i hope i don't get religious devouts coming 2 find me wif torches in their hands threateninh 2 burn me at the stake...but i'm merely speculating,dats all........anyway,i feel a bit crazy dy,so on 2 d next topic......went 2 curve,read a quarter of a book called "slam" by nick hornby......pretty nice but i still prefer "a long way done".......but nick hornby is a gud writer......his characters are eccentric but realistic at the same time......pretty hard 2 do.....haha....well,nothing else 2 say,so......bye??

99.99%

99.99% is a huge amount of people....dats d percentage of people who don't give a shit about what u r doing cuz dey r too busy caring about their own lives........but it's ironic cuz most of us belong 2 dat percentage but at d same time we spend 99.99% of our time caring about wat people think about us..........weird.......but true......i mean,i belong 2 dat category called "human".........no offence 2 d 0.01% out there....i'm sure u r perfectly normal,juz not as normal as the rest of us....even the president of U.S.A cares wat people think of him....i mean,it's pratically a defining aspect 4 his carrer......if people hate u,dey won't vote 4 u.......(George Bush is an exception)........anyway....all i'm saying is don't care so much,sure,there r practical sides 2 it,i mean,u can't go 4 a job interview wearing singlet n shorts....you'll probably inflict permanent psychological damage on dat poor guy who's interviewing you.......see,practical side........but lets look at this situation: you spend an hour deciding wat 2 wear,den u go out n u see a bunch of people giggling and pointing.......u think dat dey r laughing at u n u go OMG! but then it turns out they are laughing at the man who forgot his pants standing beside you. So,dat proves my point,i mean u r too busy wondering wat's their opinion of u dat u don't realise the pants-less guy next 2 u......so,stop wondering......n even if u do,juz pretend dat they think u r totally hot.....cuz dat wat puts us in the category "human"....

'hini"

Everyone's worried about A(H1N1) these days.....or as i call it,hini........much less of a mouthful,if u ask me.....it's lyk,i hear a cough or a sneeze,i shout hini!!.....by the time u shout A-H-1-N-1.....u wud have caught the flu,so u c,it saves lives,i guess.....anyway,i didn't go 2 skul again 2day...cuz of hini...,which can kill,well,not me cuz i'm perfectly healthy,says the little voice inside my head.......they call it the subconcious but i noe it's not.......i mean,d subconcious tells u d right thing 2 do n all dat kind of stuff.......if i hear a voice inside my head.....i can't be dat healthy,can i??? Maybe i have a brain aneurysm,ooh,i spelled it correct(yay).....but nvm......on 2 the next topic which i call "The Wider Orbit"....which is NOT about space cuz the title is quite suggestive but it's not eventhough NASA wud be flattered,i dunno y but i'm straying frm "The Wider Orbit"(scary music playing in the background)....ok,i stole the title n d main storyline frm a story......but it applies 2 me n it's a little different.......so,here goes d topic or wateva.....usually in a group of 3,1 person rotates in a wider orbit but in my case,dere r 4 people buy i rotate in a wider orbit den d rest.......weird,isn't it????or maybe it's cuz i'm a very self-centered person suffering from LOA.....or brain aneurysm....or gasp!! "hini".......i'm back 2 dat again,so u c,"hini" is life-ruining,i prefer ruining den threatening......d word's sooo dramatic.....all i want 2 say is beware of "hini' n always wash ur hands..........y am i suddenly sounding lyk OPWAOWH.........it stands 4"old people who are obsessed with hini"....ooh....i made a new acronym!

confused!

i don't reali noe y i bother updating the blog when nobody reads it......seriously.....so,i can put all my personal and deepest feelings without ppl calling me a bitch.....so,i don't even need 2 make my blog private which makes life much simpler cuz i'm not good with these technology stuff....considering i'm born in the 21st century...which is like a big shocker....okie,gotta stop rambling now.....anyway,i juz read these 2 books by joestein garder(i'm not sure dats how u spell it) but the first book is called "sophie's world"........it's bout philosiphy n the history of it.....n u noe,it was juz spellbinding......quite heavy stuff.....n den i read "The Ringmasters Daughter".....it was quite light compared 2 his previous book but the ending i went "gasp"(mock horror) ya.....quite shocking n controversial not that i'm gonna start a petition 2 boycott the book,mind u,i'm not a prude(i hope).......then i read "angels and demons"....i'm sure u noe by who.....if u don't,i suggest u stop living under a rock....anyway,after so many heavy reads,actually 3 is not a bug number but anyways i wanted 2 try something lighter,,,,lyk "brother odd" by dean koontz........it's a triology(a light triology) but i couldn't find the 1st n 2nd book so i bought the 3rd book but i manage 2 understand cuz it was pretty light....actually,i wouldn't call it light,it was more strange n like the title suggests,odd.......but refreshing n amusing at the same time......not chick lit type of light but a different type.....n jodi picoult is not chick lit,contrary 2 what my mum says......it's....uh......fiction...ya.....anyway,looking 4 odder books 2 read,dunno why.....owh n a sum of my other posts r pretty emo,so....don't take notice,like i said,no one reads it,so,erh....ya,it was all right 4 me 2 post bout my.........uh........murderous tendencies?? so,erh,nothing else 2 say,so whoever u r dats reading this,proboably no one.....see you whenever....

My Motto

I've got a new motto in life....it's "We walk the path of lifr,not with our feet but with our heart".......i think it's reali meaningful....lyk if we have enuff will,we can do anything.........dat means dat although life is diffucult,u have 2 tell urself 2 suck it up n move on.......even though it's easier 2 wallow in self-pity n tell urself life is not worth living n all dat crap.......i mean,maybe ur boyfren dump u or ur frens r not talking 2 u..........SO WHAT??!! i mean,ur problem isn't such a big deal........dere r BIGGER deals out dere,so all u can do is suck it up! so......dats gna be my life motto which i will 4get after a week or two......lol........but i have 2 give credit where it's due.....i got d saying frm a chinese show called "The Silver Chambers Of Sorrow" but dey spoke it in cantonese of course.........i juz transalated it 2 english...haha.......well,dats it 4 .....now...or wateva ;p

LIFE

It doesn't pay 2 fall in love........i mean,wat's d point?? u end up getting hurt anyway......i've got living proof......n not juz bout love,frens r an issue too,sum still want 2 be ur fren even though dey were angry wif u 4 no apparent reason.....but sum r.......i'm not gna eloborate on dat..........now back 2 love n guys n y dey r such assholes......most guys r rubberbands........it's called d "rubberband theory" thought out by wei ann.......it's true actually........once dey get close 2 u,dey snap lyk a rubberband but dere's one BIG difference........rubberbands can be stretched again n again,guys.........dey can oni stretch once.........it's frustrating........well, a person once said 2 me dat life stands 4"Life Is Fucking Easy " n i tld dat person 2 stick it up where d sun shines......cuz life n easy do not go in d same sentence.......

"Ponteng School"

I'm glad i ponteng skul yesterday n today cuz so did a lot of people anyway........i bet dere was nothing 2 do in skul........n i didn't want 2 get back any papers,cuz i did REALI badly....lol......have 2 take kumon achievement test again today...boohoo =( cuz d last time i got lyk 7/20 which means i reali sucked........so have 2 retake it.....WAY not looking forward 2 it....haiz......well,i juz have 2 suck it up,i guess.......nothing much i can do about it.......den got maths tuition after d sucky test.....so......not looking forward 2 dat oso,have 2 go 2 skul again 2moro.......i don't want 2......skul pretty much sux n i have 2 face sum ppl hu bitch bout me n say i complain a lot,which is true cuz dats wat i'm doing now....lawl.....but i don't mind if d whole world bitches bout me but she's one person i nvr expected 2 do dat....haiz,oh well.......i wonder whether she noes how hurt i am...owh n dat person oso says i'm emo all d time....but........nobody can be happl 365 days a year,rite????? i mean,dats impossible,okay,fine,maybe not....but i noe i can't.......i was juz reali depressed n i juz wanted me n everyone 2 die.......i still do....lol......but not so much now...haha.....so i actually took her words 2 heart n tried 2 be happy but i knew i was fake happy........i couldn't fake dat much cuz i've been fake happy at home lyk all d time.....so skul sux n i hate it........4 no particular reason..........n since i'm so "emo"........everything i hear emo songs....i feel better when "normal" people r suppose 2 feel sad........i srsly think my nerves r not connected properly....haha......nothing much i can do bout dat either...lol....well,friendship is complicated n is lyk bitter chocolate....it's sweet on d surface but bitter on d inside.....n anyway i always tot frens r suppose 2 be dere 4 u when ur having a problem,even if u don't tell dem,dey shud be concern n cheer u up.....not get annoyed wif u n leave u in d lurch....rite?????

Bored to death

I'm blogging two posts a day cuz i'm reali bored.......can't reali wait 4 skul 2 start again cuz staying at home is sooo boring.......nothing 2 do except go on9 n dat type of shit...lol......i want 2 watch "17 again" but no time...oni manage 2 watch "night at the museum 2" which was quite okok oni......i prefer d 1st one though but d 2nd one is not bad oso......i juz watched "spongebob squarepants" i don't care wat anyone says..........it rox!!

Who lives in a pineapple under the sea?
SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS

Absorbent and yellow and porous is he
SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS

If nautical nonsense is something you wish
SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS

Then drop on the deck and flop like a fish
SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS
SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS
SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS
SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS!!!!!!!

21st century breakdown

Now i'm obsesseing over Green Day's new album, "21st Century Breakdown"......most of d songs can get frm youtube n most websites actually,dat way i get 2 listen 4 free!!!! d song "last night on earth" is sort of a ballad n it's pretty emo,which suits me...lol......n den "21 guns" is slow rock......"viva la Gloria" starts wif a slow piano melody den gradually becomes rock......"christians inferno" is pretty angsty which shows how different d 2 main characters are.........it's pretty much lyk a story......."imagine making out when dere ir guns n chaos around you" this is a quote from d lead singer of "Green Day"..........went 2 Kumon yesterday,saw d asshole,n made me feel even more geram den i oredi was....but got over it pretty quickly,took my uniform 2 be altered cuz it was lyk falling off in front *ahem* embarassing incident which freaked out 2 people.....but let's not get into dat....well,nothing more 2 say,so bye!!

The E.N.D

Dats d title of Black Eye Peas new album.....i can't wait 2 buy it!! "Boom boom pow" n "i've gotta feeling" rox!!! plus,d title is lyk so unique......."The Energy Never Dies" It's more of a club album so i think most gurls won't lyk it but as i said,it rox!!! Sum of my frens oni listen 2 those pop songs,u noe those cookie cutter songs.....not dat i dislyk it but i believe music is everywhere n everything,dats y i listen 2 every genre of music dere is:pop,R&B,hip hop,rock,club,techno,ballads.......practically everything.......well,i'll juz have 2 wait 4 "The E.N.D" 2 come out......i think it came out dy...owh well....wateva.....haiz,i have nothing 2 write anymore,so bb!!

The Show

I'm pretty tired.....but i'm happy cuz i heard my fav song called "The Show" by Lenka.......u probably never heard of her but she rox!!!!!

The Show
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to goI can't do it alone(I've tried)
and I don't know why
Slow it down make it stop or else my heart is going to pop
'cuz it's too much
Yeah, it's a lott o be something I'm not
I'm a foolout of love
'cuz I just can't get enough
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to goI can't do it alone(I've tried)
and I don't know why
I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but don't show it
I can't figure it out
it's bringing me down
I know
I've got to let it go
and just enjoy the show
The sun is hot in the sky just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign and synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knowst hey've got a ticket to that show
Yeah
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go
I can't do it alone(I've tried)
and I don't know why
I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but don't show it
I can't figure it out
it's bringing me down
I know
I've got to let it go
and just enjoy the show
oh oh
Just enjoy the show
oh oh
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go
I can't do it alone(I've tried)
and I don't know why
I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
it's bringing me down
I know
I've got to let it go
and just enjoy the show
dum de dum du dum de dum
Just enjoy the show
dum de dum du dum de dum
Just enjoy the show
I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show
I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

Tired Week

I had a really tired week.....i think i'm gna die.....first was d asean scholarship,took the test,wasnt dat hard except 4 maths which was ltk effing hard!! i practically left half of the paper blank...dats how hard it was!!!! but,it's over so i'll juz leave it 2 fate...c wat happens......n i saw darren kee there,guess i'm not d oni one dat wants 2 gat out of dis hellhole..........den d next day i went 2 penang,it was ok i guess,went 2 penang hill n rode on d vernicular............it was reali crammed n i cud barely breathe...........n it smelt cuz dere were a lot of smelly,sweaty people.....but when we reached,we went 4 tea n scones at David Brown's..........reali nice ambience.......took sum photos but was too lazy 2 upload it......anyway,dats all dat happen so now i'm juz reali bored......so bye!

NOTHING TO DO

I'm really bored so i'm blogging........which happens once in a blue moon. Had to go to kumon yesterday......nothing much to do,finished in lyk 24 minutes(i'm not boasting). Although, i'm looking 4ward 2 dis friday,am going 2 Harrods in KLCC.YAY!!! den d next day have 2 take test 4 asean scholarship secondary three......way not looking 4ward 2 dat!! i have 2 take maths,english n general ability test O.o wat d hell is dat??!! so......i looked in sum blogs n dey say it's sum kind of i.q test.....WTF??? my i.q is lyk -oooo.1.......i'm SO gna die!! Actually,in d 1st place,i nvr expected 2 get shortlisted.....i mean it,my results r mediocore,my curricular is lyk shit....so,y pick me?? i have a theory,maybe d rest hu applied r bimbos.....i dunno n no offence 2 ppl hu applied n bimbos.......ppl call me a bimbo all d time but i'm not one(i hope). I do hope i get in....i reali want 2 go cuz i feel lyk i'm suffocating in here.....i mean i have been in malaysia 4 13 n a half years.....anyone's bound 2 get bored.....rite?? I mite miss my life here.......my family n u noe a FEW of my true frens,which i will not name for no reason whatsoever.......skul holiday is pretty boring,especially if u r lifeless lyk me......again wif d "syok sendiri".....now,cuz i'm so bored n 2 c how selfish i am,i'm gna count how many times i use d word "I" 34 times......wow i'm a selfish bitch!

CHORAL FEST

I am sooo freaking bored!! Juz got back frm choralfest coompetition yesterday.......n i watch supernatural until 6am in d morning......so, i'm lyk damn tired. Choralfest was alright,i guess....it was fun at some parts,but a bit boring........i almost fell asleep during d competition......NOT when we were performing,but when d other choirs were......i think everyone was lyk way exhausted n 1 of d choirs sang dis REALLY slow n sleepy song......so,it juz made me even more sleepy.....n den dere was did choir frm philipinnes (is dat how u spell it?) anyway,dey were lyk damn freaking gud!!!! of course,dey won........but we got silver,same as d seniors but ours is d low silver n d seniors r high silver. n den dere was dis skul called "sam tet voices"......dey were pretty gud but more importantly,dere was a hawt guy!! a bit short but still hawt.....n den sum skuls were quite freindly lyk catholic high,their room was rite next 2 ours,so we went in n "interacted" d sopranos r reali gud.....n den dere was d choir frm sibu called "SMB Methodist Sibu" FYI, Sibu is in Sarawak.......their costumes were so funny, Eunise n i called dem d "hawaiian people" but since dey were gud,dey have d right 2 b a fashion disaster......well, dats all 4 choralfest. What else happened?? pretty much nothing since i'm a lifeless pathetic loser.....i very "syok sendiri" owh.........before i post dis.....i want 2 write down d choralfestival theme song.......from wat i can remember,i think i'll get it wrong but nvm

Used to dream of big things beyond my reach,
Now your with me,we beat d same beat,
I never thought i can build any dream today,
Today........

I'm not alone anymore,cause i've opened up d door,
To the music i was born with,to the music of your shores,
Not alone anymore,cause i'm bringing down these walls....
Not alone no,no,no when we're singing d same song....

Kembaraku jauh dan berwarna,"something didimu,oh di sisiku,
Semua cabaran bukan halangan......

(chorus)

A malay rangkap which i forgot...heh heh

(Chorus)

Sopranos:singing d same.....
Altos :singing d same.....
Tenors :singing d same.....
Bass :singing d same....
Everyone: song......

hey!! havent updated 4 months cuz lazy 2 write..........until stupid yi lin a.k.a rubbish picker girl ask me 2 update...........lol........ neway have cum up wif a conclusion wif aud n jiin-may.........hawt guys r either gay or big jerks!!! which leaves d ugly guys 4 us.............sad rite??? n oral test practice was so retarded..............we "cam whore" n recorded stupid videos..........lawl lah..............

back to the hell hole(school)

hey!!!!!!!! its back to skul again...back to seeing our frens,enemies n teachers we hate (sigh!!!) dis year,im at 2 belian at my school,which is ok............i guess, not really sure=). anyway........i really really really really really hate my sciance teacher....shes fat,stupid mean n fat n stupid(i oredi mention dat,didint i?) last year 4 my science paper i got 79...just 1 more mark to an A n she wouldnt give me dat mark......it was just 1 mark!!!!!!!!!!! stupid fatass!!!!!! hate her like anything!!!!! my 1st day back was boring but free!! coz i quit being a prefect(yay!!) n i love being a normal student!!! it so totally rox!!! dat was a lot of exclamation points........i oni got about 4 of my frens in d same class as me,the rest r all different like caryn,mei yan,xin yin,wei ann,bobby,carmen,alyson n a few others.....................haiz! so sad lah.........sigh....im so not ready to go back to skul yet...back to the same old boring routine every single freaking day.......go to skul,go tuition,go home,do h/w,study,watch a bit of tv..........OMG!!!!!!!! im gonna die repeating dis routine everyday!!!!!!!! i swear!!! i notice something in skul 2day.....the form 1 boys r lyk so freaking short!!!!!!!! they look lyk standard 4 or 5,not to mention nerdy looking!!!! i dont mean 2 be mean but.....its kinda true..........lol=) well...........i gtg sign off cuz....im just too lazy too type anymore..haha.......n enjoy being stuck in the hellhole!!=)